Molly! Thank you for sharing in your wonderful, inspiring way; Trust! Important lessons that are presented by the Universe, random and not!
I want to share a very recent, trust, gratitude experience!
I just returned home yesterday evening, Sunday April 27, after 7 days/nights in the ICU! Me? A massive asthma attack, exacerbated by blowing dust and stress! I couldn’t breathe, I was life flighted to a Tucson ICU on Easter Sunday. Through 7 days and nights of tests, scans, xrays, and meds , nothing could be found but a major asthma attack.
I trusted the docs, the results…I trusted my body to heal and breathe. I didn’t use my phone except to keep in touch with my husband. I didn’t watch TV, I focused on breathing, on being patient, on being calm. I feel like the Universe gifted me an opportunity to SLOW down, to breathe, to reflect and to be grateful!! If I let my mind go to worry, or why me, my heart rate rose, my breathing became labored…I had to stay focused on breathing.
At one point, on Day 4, I had a mini panic attack, all bells and beepers went off on the machines …what was I thinking? How did the machines know? I was thinking of how I used to run and win the Bridger Ridge Run, multiple times and how I won XC ski races for years…I’m capable of so much more than this…lying here in an ICU!
Breathe and calm down…it took me 7 days and nights to master it, I’m home safe now, breathing with a renewed energy, sense and gratitude!! I thank the Universe for the lessons, the knowledge and the deep experience !!
Wow Barbara, that is such a journey. Thank you for sharing it with me (us). So interesting that you were in that deep place and expansion/contraction with your breath, wow. Glad that you are home safe and sound now!
Thank you for sharing your experience of a surprise no-phone situation, Molly! An edge for sure, and so wonderful to notice all it brought up for you: the trust, the sensations, the curiosity. Love it, and am pondering the same! Even published a Substack column about it last year… called Analog Goes Digital haha. Keep ‘em coming please!
Trust! I have had that feeling when I didn’t have my phone and I didn’t name it. So helpful to hear the details and your response and for me to continue to question and choose how I am engaging with technology.
Well, my 75-year-old Dad who is more tech savvy than I am read my post and responded with this: "I liked your posting around being without a mobile phone! Btw, you can text to and from your MacAir on Messages. I do it all the time and it sinks with my iPhone. Apple has now joined up with Starlink for global satellite coverage when no WIFI is available. We have now entered Elon's world unknowingly!"
There's so much I don't know.
A friend recently suggested that I turn toward AI so that I can understand it.
I hear that.
My mammal body says no, but I do hear it.
My whole body wants no part of Elon's world, though. Neither does my family. Neither does my Dad. I got into a Tesla for the first time while visiting a friend in CA and it made me shiver. Nothing but a screen. My body didn't jive with it. Am I supposed to jive with it? I just don't know.
We need to question everything - while we have the privilege of doing so. So many things were invented/changed without any thought or discussion about the consequences to individuals, communities, the planet.
Of course AI is useful (research, health care) but at what cost?
Molly, this was lovely, an internal and external venturing beautifully mapped. Do you know Hannah Hinchman's sketchbook maps of her hikes and wanderings? I know you'd love her work. This subterranean arising is exactly the sort of understood boundary of the self that I love mapping. I will share this.
Molly! Thank you for sharing in your wonderful, inspiring way; Trust! Important lessons that are presented by the Universe, random and not!
I want to share a very recent, trust, gratitude experience!
I just returned home yesterday evening, Sunday April 27, after 7 days/nights in the ICU! Me? A massive asthma attack, exacerbated by blowing dust and stress! I couldn’t breathe, I was life flighted to a Tucson ICU on Easter Sunday. Through 7 days and nights of tests, scans, xrays, and meds , nothing could be found but a major asthma attack.
I trusted the docs, the results…I trusted my body to heal and breathe. I didn’t use my phone except to keep in touch with my husband. I didn’t watch TV, I focused on breathing, on being patient, on being calm. I feel like the Universe gifted me an opportunity to SLOW down, to breathe, to reflect and to be grateful!! If I let my mind go to worry, or why me, my heart rate rose, my breathing became labored…I had to stay focused on breathing.
At one point, on Day 4, I had a mini panic attack, all bells and beepers went off on the machines …what was I thinking? How did the machines know? I was thinking of how I used to run and win the Bridger Ridge Run, multiple times and how I won XC ski races for years…I’m capable of so much more than this…lying here in an ICU!
Breathe and calm down…it took me 7 days and nights to master it, I’m home safe now, breathing with a renewed energy, sense and gratitude!! I thank the Universe for the lessons, the knowledge and the deep experience !!
Thank you! Barbara
Wow Barbara, that is such a journey. Thank you for sharing it with me (us). So interesting that you were in that deep place and expansion/contraction with your breath, wow. Glad that you are home safe and sound now!
Thank you for sharing your experience of a surprise no-phone situation, Molly! An edge for sure, and so wonderful to notice all it brought up for you: the trust, the sensations, the curiosity. Love it, and am pondering the same! Even published a Substack column about it last year… called Analog Goes Digital haha. Keep ‘em coming please!
Trust! I have had that feeling when I didn’t have my phone and I didn’t name it. So helpful to hear the details and your response and for me to continue to question and choose how I am engaging with technology.
Love that you felt that too! It really surprised me in myself.
Wow, just wow! I loved this
Well, my 75-year-old Dad who is more tech savvy than I am read my post and responded with this: "I liked your posting around being without a mobile phone! Btw, you can text to and from your MacAir on Messages. I do it all the time and it sinks with my iPhone. Apple has now joined up with Starlink for global satellite coverage when no WIFI is available. We have now entered Elon's world unknowingly!"
There's so much I don't know.
A friend recently suggested that I turn toward AI so that I can understand it.
I hear that.
My mammal body says no, but I do hear it.
My whole body wants no part of Elon's world, though. Neither does my family. Neither does my Dad. I got into a Tesla for the first time while visiting a friend in CA and it made me shiver. Nothing but a screen. My body didn't jive with it. Am I supposed to jive with it? I just don't know.
We need to question everything - while we have the privilege of doing so. So many things were invented/changed without any thought or discussion about the consequences to individuals, communities, the planet.
Of course AI is useful (research, health care) but at what cost?
Molly, this was lovely, an internal and external venturing beautifully mapped. Do you know Hannah Hinchman's sketchbook maps of her hikes and wanderings? I know you'd love her work. This subterranean arising is exactly the sort of understood boundary of the self that I love mapping. I will share this.